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[shrug]

I'm not sure, either. I guess I'm still figuring that out.

Why? You trying to set me up with someone?

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Maybe I am. What do normal relationships look like anyway?

[Intensity wouldn't know. He certainly hasn't seen any.

Well. Maybe B and Gold count, but they are still... unique people]

[we_meet_again]

Beats me! I'm not sure I have much experience with this sort of thing.

Even though there are a lot of beautiful and wonderful people here, I'm generally not really that interested in them in that way. Apparently I'm either very picky or I'm broken, because I have a lot of difficulty with even the baseline amount of physical contact that other people seem to do just fine with. I've only recently learned how to be okay with hugging my own unitmates, and even still it's only like, two of them.

So I don't know if I'd be any good in a relationship. If it happens, cool, and if not, that's also cool. Whatever happens, happens.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Immediately:]

You're not broken.

[There is a 50/50 chance he did not parse the rest of what Cobalt was saying after he said that]

[we_meet_again]

Ah. Well that settles it, I guess.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Cobalt!

[we_meet_again]

What!

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Self-deprecation doesn't look good on you.

[we_meet_again]

Is it still self-deprecation if it's true?

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Then how are you broken? Explain this to me.

[we_meet_again]

Just like I said: I have a lot of difficulty with even the baseline amounts of physical intimacy that other people seem to find normal. Like even hugging or holding hands is something I've had to learn to do since I arrived here, and it's still kind of uncomfortable and alarming most of the time.

In the first kissing game, someone threatened to kiss me and I actually panicked and got really upset, and it was super embarrassing for both of us.

And while I like a lot of people and everyone is very beautiful, the idea of actually doing that sort of thing with them is... generally pretty unappealing.

I don't know. Maybe my brain is wired wrong. Kissing people isn't supposed to be frightening and unpleasant, is it?

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Depends on the situation.

You don't have a competitive bone in your body. Of course you wouldn't enjoy a game of it.

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[What do you mean he doesn't have a comp-- wait no that's true.]

[He shrugs]

Things are slowly getting easier. Maybe I'll figure it out, maybe I won't. I'm just gonna go at my own pace and hope nobody gives me too much grief about it.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Punch those that do.

In the feelings, though I know you could also handle yourself in a physical fight.

[we_meet_again]

Heh. Thanks.

[He rubs the back of his neck, smiling a little but overall looking kind of sheepish]

...And thanks for understanding. I don't really like talking about it.



I don't know if you were being serious about setting me up with someone but, probably better better not to.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Shrugs. Was he being serious? Probably... not.]

Probably better off that way.

[we_meet_again]

[quiet a moment, continuing to walk through the garden]

In any case. Thank you so much for bringing me here.

This is really beautiful!