Just like I said: I have a lot of difficulty with even the baseline amounts of physical intimacy that other people seem to find normal. Like even hugging or holding hands is something I've had to learn to do since I arrived here, and it's still kind of uncomfortable and alarming most of the time.

In the first kissing game, someone threatened to kiss me and I actually panicked and got really upset, and it was super embarrassing for both of us.

And while I like a lot of people and everyone is very beautiful, the idea of actually doing that sort of thing with them is... generally pretty unappealing.

I don't know. Maybe my brain is wired wrong. Kissing people isn't supposed to be frightening and unpleasant, is it?