We were trying to protect ourselves from the pain of having to watch our loved ones die again. And, in doing so, we took all that fear and stress and shoved it onto them, instead. They nearly had to watch us kill ourselves. And they were not... [clips a sprig of lavender from the bush] ...happy with us, about that.
And it makes sense. It's a horrible feeling, to watch the people you care about suffer. It's so horrible that we decided our own death was easier for us to bear, if we could stop that from happening one more time.
Kill other people so your unit can live, kill your unit so other people can live... if it comes down to "playing in a way you can live with" then the decision is inherently selfish no matter what you do, isn't it?
But "selfish" doesn't necessarily mean wrong or bad. Sometimes "selfish" just means taking care of your own needs, which we all need to do to be healthy.
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We were trying to protect ourselves from the pain of having to watch our loved ones die again. And, in doing so, we took all that fear and stress and shoved it onto them, instead. They nearly had to watch us kill ourselves. And they were not... [clips a sprig of lavender from the bush] ...happy with us, about that.
And it makes sense. It's a horrible feeling, to watch the people you care about suffer. It's so horrible that we decided our own death was easier for us to bear, if we could stop that from happening one more time.
Kill other people so your unit can live, kill your unit so other people can live... if it comes down to "playing in a way you can live with" then the decision is inherently selfish no matter what you do, isn't it?
But "selfish" doesn't necessarily mean wrong or bad. Sometimes "selfish" just means taking care of your own needs, which we all need to do to be healthy.